Hello Shaylee, welcome - you are not alone on this forum. We have all been where you are and have felt the disbelief of diagnosis. The early days are such a whirlwind of information and appointments - it all feels out of our control. But once you have had surgery and have a treatment plan you will feel better. Don't be afraid to question your specialists if something isn't clear. I kept a notebook and jotted down all the questions I thought of as I knew I would forget half of them once in the appointment. Remember that no question is stupid. Wishing you all the best on Monday, it is the start of your healing and being cancer free :) Please let us know how you go and remember we are all here if you have questions or need to talk. take care, Jane x