To be honest, the weekend between seeing my surgeon and confirmation of diagnosis was the worst part of my cancer experience. It’s the unknown. You were never going to get this, you don’t know what will happen, you have no idea how you will manage anything and you’re scared! If you can hang on to the idea that things will actually improve from this point, it can help. Knowing exactly what helps, knowing when helps, having the words helps. Day by day, your knowledge will get better and the confusion will get less. Do take someone with you to your appointment if you can, it can be hard to take everything in at once. Keep breathing! Remind yourself that many have travelled this road before, just as unprepared, and have done well. Best wishes.