Nervous about surgery

It is what it is and the only way forward is...well...forward.  You will get through it, no matter what "it" is.  Be kind to yourself and allow yourself to deal with it as you need to.  If you need professional counselling then, go for it - it's common.  In fact, it can be a little disconcerting, when you think you're being so original in your not-coping and drama, to realise that you're just the same as everyone else.  "Yes, we often see that reaction about this time in treatment"  Oh well...it just means that the machinery is there to help you deal with things.  I would suggest that if your hospital has a garden, take a gown and easy slip on shoes or slippers that you can wear outside.  Far better than walking the hospital corridors if you surgeon will allow it, and much better for your state of mind - although being Winter, the weather may not be on your side.  Oh...and do your exercises as instructed!