@Djk thank you for your message xx
I'm located in Brisbane. I understand not being ready for the changes, I think perhaps we all go there at some stage, it's such a big thing. I did some research on the surgery originally when I found out what I would be having done, but I have stopped looking now. I feel like it is what it is and it's the next step in my journey and I kind of want that part over and done with so I can move onto the next phase. I'm not sure I have accepted the circumstances either I still have the why me days!
I think perhaps we are doing better than what we think we are, it's a crappy ride that is for sure!
Will keep you posted, you take care as well :)