Hi @Djk, so sorry you are going through this. It's a tough gig. So many emotions to deal with and all are normal given what you are experiencing on this breast cancer ride. You have been through so much already and surgery pending escalates anxiety and no wonder, it is a big deal. You will recover physically quickly really. Dealing with body image goes on one's entire life regardless of reconstruction. As @Fraser said we are constantly changing and we have to adjust as we go. You can always chat to your breast care nurse and there are psychologists who can help too. You have alot to process and talking with a professional who understands the breast cancer journey can help. However please do not have shame about this. There is no shame, there is only courage and resilience and you have it in loads. Best wishes