Zoffiel, Di,and Fairydust, Thank you for your replies and words of encouragement, it is much appreciated. Losing a loved one I think is the hardest thing in this life, and many of you have lost loved one's yourself. I guess I wasn't expecting to be back in the very same place as my mum was. I already knew a lot of the nurses from when my mum did treatment, it is both comforting and disturbing at the same time as it brings so many memories up for me. Makes me miss her even more,like it was yesterday.
I am glad I joined this forum as I'm sure it will help knowing others going through this too.
Thank you all
Lisa x