Hi @Melburnian,
Sorry to hear about your surgery woes.Sounds like the goal posts have been moved a few times on you. That’s heightens the anxiety for sure. You are at the scary stage when you don’t know what to expect and you are still processing the cancer diagnosis.Your body has let you down and you don’t have control.It will improve when there’s a plan in place and you can deal with each treatment bit by bit.To think of the whole lot is overwhelming.Find something that quietens/relaxes you when your mind is racing eg. meditation,mindfullness
walking,art etc.
Statistics can do your head in but let them work in your favour and believe you are in the majority who live to old age. I’ve been through this crap journey twice- 2003 and then again in 2010(same breast) I’m fine and no more cancer. There are lots of us still kicking around(18yrs later for me)
and enjoying life.Be prepared to cry at the most unexpected times and to have the occasional meltdown- all normal.Come back here to vent or ask questions. Big hug xx