@Julez1958 my Dr told me to avoid Dr Google also - and it's such a great piece of advice. I've been listening to the BCNA podcasts on my morning walks which have been really informative. I'm trying to focus what I look for / listen to on the part of the process I'm at - to keep it in small chunks.
I'm off for surgery next week. My lymph node biopsy showed cancer cells but they didn't have enough tissue to determine if it was breast cancer or lymphoma. They'll be removing the dodgy lymph node, doing a sentinel node biopsy with both dyes (interested to see how blue I go), and a simple mastectomy. Once pathology is back, we'll know whether I need chemo and/or radiation.
I've decided to put off decisions about reconstruction until I've got the cancer sorted out.
I think things will really sink in after surgery, even with all the tests and appointments, it still feels kind of unreal.