Hi Tillsall, I was just like you- shaking all over and heart racing when I got my diagnosis on a Friday and couldn’t see my surgeon till the Tuesday- the weekend from hell! The more my heart raced,the more I thought the cancer would travel all over my body.I’m not a drinker but I turned to Irish Baileys that weekend.I cleaned out a lot of cupboards and I think I may have taken an over counter sleeper like Restivit.I was a mess.So your reaction is totally normal and once you get a plan in place you’ll feel a bit better.You are at the scary,is this a bad dream stage so just do whatever helps to calm and distract you.I’ve been through this crap journey twice- 2003 and 2010 and I’m totally fine now- the majority of women will be,so try and tell yourself that.Big hug.xx