Just have faith in your doctors @MezDiaz. I was the same, I have what? I dutifully went in for surgery in a kind of a disbelieving fog, then had to have a second surgery because they didn't get it all the first time. Now that one really pee'd me off but when all was said and done and I got a copy of the pathology results, my doctors had been right. That cancer would have definitely gone crazy and killed me. The only way out of it was to have the surgery. Sometimes we don't want to have things done and I personally absolutely loathe hospitals but at least they let me go home the next day as that is the barest minimum they could keep me in.
I have had the depression as many on here have too. You do get through it. I tried the psychiatrists meds for it but I had an allergy to it but it did get me over the worst of it so look in to that one.
Choose an activity you like doing. For me, I have gotten in to jigsaw puzzles. I love the colors and the exercise it gives my arms sorting all the pieces and I usually have the laptop on watching netflix all day as well. I said to my hubby there is just nothing in me nowadays that makes me want to clean house or do washing. My nesting days are either gone forever or put in hold while I am on this hormone therapy. Lucky for me, hubby doesn't mind doing the chores and he said doing clothes washing is therapeutic for him. He is a keeper. <3
