I feel so detached I want to cancel my surgery because I don't feel I need it!
I don't know where to start! I'm 45 and after ankle surgery (broken) and a massive pulmonary embolism, that according to the doctors I shouldn't have survived, I've been dealing with major depression ...
I suspect that you're probably in shock and that because of it, it doesn't seem real. Please listen to what your doctor is telling you. At least, if you don't agree, seek a second opinion. Take care.