@primek I hear what you are saying. After being diagnosed, I was not prepared for what was about to come. I still am fumbling my way through this experience. That bloody emotional rollercoaster is something I never asked for... its not something any of us ask for.
You have nailed it... control. Not having control and being vulnerable to cancer is not something I was ready to accept. But I had no choice. That is the frustrating part. But I have been told time... in time everything will get easier. I have to believe that.
All the best with planning your holiday. It will be well worth the wait.
Thanks again x