Hi Tamazarhiel,
I am 35 with 2 kids a 3year old and a 1 year old and got diagnosed with HER2+. I just wanted to tell you that it is completely normal to zone out. What I do during doctors appointment is I record the whole thing so that I dont miss anything especially if you feel you have trouble comprehending things. Second, its normal to be scared with chemo but dont be its not as bad as it seems.. well of course everybody reacts differently but with me I am sick no energy to eat for 4 days post chemo then after that you are back to your normal self so I just eat my hearts out getting ready for the next battle. I dont know if you are religious... but it really helps if you pray. Just surrender all the pain and worry you have and you will be suprised of the calmness it brings you.