Sorry to see you join our exclusive little club, @cactusk .... but then again, none of us ever thought we would either :( Your emotions are 100% natural - you'll be surprised how relieved you will feel AFTER the surgery, too, just knowing it is GONE! xx
Let us know how you go after your surgery (on this thread) and it will become a sort of 'diary' - ask any questions & we'll do our best to answer them for you xx. We've 'been there, done that' ....
All the best for your surgery today - make sure you take it easy after you get home from the surgery - no housework, lifting kids/laundry/anything .... and I would suggest sleeping with a small cushion under the arm on the side of the surgery (and hug it on the way home, to avoid bumps on the road. ;) )
Check out this post, for lots of info on the forum - you can show off your furkids, gardens, art & craft - and even have a laugh.
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/discussion/23477/a-big-welcome-to-all-our-new-members#latesttake care, all the best - sending big cyber hugs xx