Hi @Jennie_Lou,
Welcome lovely. Definitely sux to be here but you'll find a wealth of warmth and knowledge on the forum.
The start is just awful. So many unknowns running around in your head and the endless waiting for results and a plan. I found it in the nodes first so knew it had spread already as well. I am sure everyone here remembers that ice cold fear and cloudy fog at the beginning.
Ask a million questions of your team and if you don't understand something ask them again. It's very easy to be swept along feeling like you have no control at the start.
Isn't it odd how a lot of us end up calming everyone else down? I found this too which is why I stopped taking anyone to appointments apart from the breast care nurse, that way I didn't have to deal with their emotions as well. Everyone handles things differently and you just need to do whatever is best for you to get through. There is no right or wrong way to do it.
It is a long and windy roller coaster, but once a plan is in place you are so busy with appointments and treatment that the time litterally flies.
All the best lovely. We are here if you need us, we get it.
xoxoxoxoxo