Help... I am terrified!

Hi Sheryl Welcome to the club no one wants to join. I so remember feeling exactly like you before my treatment, left mastectomy, 3 rounds of FEC and 3 rounds of taxotere followed by a right prophylactic mastectomy last Monday. The hardest part for me was not knowing what my experience would be, and being a control freak and Googling too much DEFINITELY didn't help, but as Mich said it may well not end up being any way near as bad as you're imagining. I was fortunate to be well enough to work through chemo. I'm out the other side of treatment now and slowly getting back to normal, all be it a new normal! I don't post much but I've gained a huge amount of reliable information and inspiration from the wonderful women this site. If you have any questions don't hesitate to ask. Remember to accept help and be kind to yourself. Sending you positive thoughts, my heart goes out to you. Jane xx