@sfr09 its ok to become and mess this roller coaster ride can make us emotional. better to let it out than holding it inside and becoming ill from that.
Write down any questions you have before you go to appointments. I kept my journey diary with me and wrote questions as I thought of them ... then at the next appointment I would ask them no matter how silly I thought they were.
I was 52 when diagnoses I am now (NED) no evidence of disease and enjoying life.
it will be time of many ups and downs, take the time to nurture yourself.
We all cope in different ways with the shock and then the plan ahead.
We will all answer questions we can and we get the feelings and the emotions that come with this BC.
Hugs
Soldier Crab