Welcome to the site. Yes those 1st weeks from diagnosis are just awful...I gained 5 kg as I'm an eater when stressed. I had many a sleepless night, many many tears and just feeling constantly anxious. So many tests and so much unknown. The chemo 1st though does gice you a chance to look at surgocal optiobs with more planning, not always a good thing as we torture ourselves with the "what is the right decision" but once it's dobe you feel better. Chemo is scary but the staff will support you and we are here to talk to and ask questions. Again, less stressful once started.