Freaking out about Mastectomy

Hi Everyone, Thanks for the time you have all spent giving me such great support and helpful information. Its much appreciated. I will have another look at it all when I get home and decide about the festival and camping.  I have gone manic trying to get the house really clean and everything organised so I'm not tempted to do too much when I get home. Being manic helps me settle my mind and stop the crazy thoughts, I have  always been like that. I get anxious, stop eating and go crazy manic. But it helps. I am feeling ok now the house is clean and I have some outfits organized for the hospital. I dont usually wear PJs or nighties but ironically I did have some gift PJs   that I tucked away "in case I ever go to hospital". I probably wont post again as I Have to be at Brisbane 6am Monday meaning we leave here about 4am. Which will be good, early night Sunday, no brooding in the morning, straight into it and awake in time for dinner. And I've still got a few things ive got to organise.
Hope you all have a peaceful weekend, I will let you know how it goes when I get home. 2 great things there (I am all for finding positives) . I am getting the new air expander that you do yourself at home, Which will be great as its a long trip into Brisbane;
and they have a node testing machine that tests the sentinel node  in 40 mins while your asleep so if it  is positive which hopefully it wont be, they can take some more in the same operation.
Cheers
Vicki