Freaking out about Mastectomy

Hi Everyone thanks for all the  great support and kind words of advice. Im running a bit short on data from googling "could my mri be wrong" six thousand times, which is why I am a bit slow on my responses.  We had an induction day at the hospital yesterday and I got to speak to both surgeons so Im feeling informed and confident.I was diagnosed on 12th January and have had no treatment yet but one good thing about the long delay, I have had heaps of time to think it all through, but there are still unknown elements and I'm a bit of a  creature of habit so its hard to be vulnerable and trust and just go with the flow.
I am a songwriter, and its definitely giving me lots of material for future lyrics.
I'm not sure how to respond personally to your comments but I have read them all and thank you so much. Ill let you know how it goes.
Vicki xx