feeling super sad and crying all the time

Even when going with the standard treatment we are all scared. I had many nights awake thinking, crying and being fearful of metastases and the thought I could go through all this treatment and the outcome could still be the same. Even during treatment I was secretly worried side effects were csncer returning...not side effects.  It does get better. I stopped reading research stuff...that really helped. I started to imagine that I am cancer free and recovering. ..that has also helped. A counselor will help you explore stuff and can make a huge difference. I wish you well. And PS. ..you don't need to tell everyone your treatment choices. It is your body. Just say...I have had treatment for cancer. And you have.
Take Care. Kath x