I just want to say how thankful I am to everyone that has replied to me. Sadly things just got alot worse on New years eve, my as of now ex, tried to stab me, luckily I had someone here at the time, police took out IVO and now I am just trying to get legal help regarding the house, but I have taken a step back to taking everything day by day and only Controlling what I can. Sometimes things are very overwhelming but I take deep breathes and watch trash T.V and turn off to everything that is just extra fluff. I have reconnected with a family member, which was part of the control from my ex, telling myself everyday I have people that are there for me, like this group, the breast care nurses and of course my son and daughter-in-law. I will forever be grateful for everybody that I haven't met but have given words of comfort and hope.I am now in touch with a counsellor as well. I hope that one day I can be that person to ease someone's fears and have them know their not alone, thank you all so much xoxo Karen.