Hang in there ! As others have said it’s such a roller coaster ride at first (without a safety belt or a emergency stop button !) And when you read the info on the BCNA website keep a notebook handy and write down your questions ( I can assure you you’ll forget something when in front of drs ) and take some one with you to dr appts for first few if possible .I thought I had it all covered but my brain was so focused on chemo first then surgery that I missed vital information like timing of surgery .luckily my daughter had noted that down and reminded me .