Hi @Lauren11. Sorry you find yourself in our group, but you"ll get support here, ask anything. Have you a breast care nurse? I believe they can be a godsend, though I never saw one. Try to take someone with you to appointments as four ears are better than two. Write everything down and ask for copies of all reports. Now is the time to put you first: accept offers of help, in fact ask for help. I know it’s scary at first, but one step at a time, and the picture will become clearer. We are all on different journeys. Best wishes, and give those kids a hug.