Thank you so muck Nikki for your kind words and support..........I feel lucky to be able to talk to others in this space and know that I am not my own and I will get through this.
I just feel so fixated on the pain factor which I know is silly - they will give me good drugs and keep me comfortable but I am a low pain threshold type of gal. even though I have had 2 C-sections, a lap band and a hysterectomy I am terrified!!!! The pathology results are out of my hands and what will be will be - and I know I can tackle that when it comes.......
