Aaauw sweetheart it is all so normal to feel the way you do. i agree with everyone whos posted here. what i wanted to add was that you should stick to your gut feeling. if you decide that you want a double mastectomy then stick to your guns and make sure your wishes ate heard. Don't be talked out of, or in to anything you aren't 100% happy with. I was glad to have my healthy breast removed after aggressive cancer in the other. it gave me some relief from anxiety of an occurrence. You know your body best. Have you received the My Journey Kit yet? it is very helpful and can put your mind at ease to look at it and read through the bits that applies to you. Knowledge is power. xxx Keep us posted how you travel