Despair

Hi there @Autismandbc, I can't say "I understand what you're feeling" as that would not be true. Only each of us can understand our own feelings, but I can say I know your difficulties. My husband of 42 years is a full on Aspie as is my daughter aged 36 and her partner of 14 years who have shared our home with us for the last eight years. My daughter's partner is the most impacted, and even has the 'Aspie walk". We four share our home with four cats, at one time that was eight. Yes I know...yes I know (nudge nudge)...I'm the 'weird cat lady". I am pretty much the buffer for my husband with regards to any verbal communication that he has to do. Before retirement, he was a computer technician first, then later a programmer, so he didn't have to deal much with pesky humans and their unreadable behavior. My daughter also had great difficulty as a child and as a young woman. Now she and her partner have found each other and they are a perfect match. Each understands, and doesn't judge the other. There's an old South African saying..."Every pot has its lid", and that is so true. I hope you can find someone suitable to talk to, but accept that you might have to kiss a few frogs before you find your prince, as it were. Please take care of yourself, and know that this pretty eclectic lot are always here to chat.