@rubyrumble It is tough, and I found family and friends hard but more because I was caught up in how it affects them, it would make me emotional. What I learnt though, was as wonderful as they are, unless they are going through it, they just don't understand the complexity of it all, so the Forum has been the go to place where everyone gets it. I only tell family and friends the basics. I lost alot of friends as everyone does through the process, because they don't know how to deal with it, if they only knew they just had to be there and love you...xx Melinda