SO sorry to see you here @ddon - all the best for your CT today & upcoming surgery & results xx Try not to pre-guess them. Mine was lumpy/dense & not found by mammogram too - so a double shock when found, as I'd just had an 'all clear' mammogram just 4 months earlier!
Terrific that your hubby is so supportive. Do you have a Breast Care nurse to help you with your appointments etc?
What general area do you live in (City or town name) as our members may be able to point you towards specific services available to you and the family.
The kids may gain a benefit from joining a group like - get to chat with other kids with similar stories ....
Just take one day at a time, one hour at a time if need be. Don't hide it if you are not feeling well - it just puts more stress on you. If you find yourself not always coping, ask to see a counsellor or psychologist - before it becomes a major problem. Everything becomes so hectic now, towards the end of the year, too ...
It is an amazing rollercoaster ride - even more so emotionally than physically, I found. It really mucks with your brain. Feel free to rant & rave, get angry, have a cry - it is all a part of the grieving process as it all sinks in.
Big hugs coming your way, all the best xx