Thank you Kmakm. Yes I do the markets as I make a bit of jewellery. I made myself go yesterday and ended up enjoying it. I have downloaded the My Journey kit and have been reading lots in it. Just need to get rid of the going to die syndrome. Crazy I know as breast cancer has come along way over the years and there are so many survival stories out there. Yes my partner has said for me to leave it alone for awhile and concentrate on doing something else. He has been fantastic support and will be coming along with me to see the surgeon. I am going for coffee tomorrow with a lady from a local breast cancer support group, looking forward to that. I live very near to the beach so maybe I will start my morning walks again.