Thank you Kezmusc. You are so right about your brain playing tricks and thinking the worst. Yes I have to let it be until I know exactly what treatment I will need. I have had some pretty tough times in my life and survived and not about to let this shitty cancer beat me. There are three things you can do in life and they are You can give up, You can give in, You can give it all you got. Smile and Shine. Will let you know more after I see the oncologist. Appreciate all your responses love this group. Cheers xoxo