Thank you Kmakm. Yes I have lots of family issues, which I am trying to let go. Mainly with one of my sons who doesn't talk to me hence I don't see my grandchildren. Life has been a roller coaster ride most of my life but I have dealt with it the best I can. This is the next part of my journey I guess bit shitty though. Thank you for your support. I miss my best friend so much at this time, she has advanced Vascular Dementia only 68yrs. I have to travel for my treatment as I live about 2hour drive from the hospital. I make jewellery and sell it at the markets but haven't been interested in it the past month. Yes I need to take lots of deep breaths and try to chill a bit I think and stop reading to much. Cheers xx