Thank you all so much. Must have finally got to sleep and woke to find you all had come to talk to me, now I have morning tears 😊 Thank you for pointing me in the direction of Night Howlers, that is so good to find and know I’m not alone. You are all so right, when you are a highly organised person it’s hard to accept that you are not in control anymore and that something else has taken control of you. And I always fix things - from work problems, to lost school hats, to leaking taps! But I can’t fix this. In the last few days I have met amazing health care professionals who are going to help me. You are also right in saying I have to accept help now. Sending you all a big hug 🤗