Hi @Sparrow, I know that phyllodes-tumor is different from BC but you have still come to the right place for support and are most definitely not alone. I think recurrence is a huge worry for all of us and we can relate to the anxiety this can cause and totally get where you are at. I like kmakm's idea of finding a specialist for your tumor, just be aware that even specialists can have differing opinions on what is recommended standard care and practise. Perhaps also look at some yoga, meditation to try and reduce anxiety levels. Hope you can find some peace of mind and let us know how you're going. Sending big hugs. Xx