Hi @shazzer17, welcome to the site. It's scary stuff this cancer, and you are at one of the worst stages with anxiety packed uncertainties. It does get better. Once your pathology from the lumpectomy returns then you'll have your treatment plan - your very own personalised plan of attack. Until then if you can, try and focus on calming activities, meditations, deep breathing techniques - you'll still worry yourself stupid, but that's perfectly normal. Come here to vent, rant, rave, de-stress, or to just have company with what you're going through. We are your personal cheersquad!!! Big calming hugs to you. Xx Cath