:( I am So sorry to see you here, @oreochiu - as @Afraser says - there is a reason why technicians are not supposed to reveal or try to interpret results - and sadly you are now on the receiving end of increased anxiety & even doubting the outcome of your treatment. :(
If you continue to be anxious & sad with any part of your treatment and surgery, please ask your GP for a referral to a a psychologist or other professional who may be able to give you coping mechanisms, to help.
Whack up any questions you may have here & we'll do our best to give you an honest answer.
Try not to overthink everything - put your faith in your team - they are doing the best they can for you xx
take care xx