HI Melsie. The worry never goes away but, strangely, I've become used to it. My anxiety is not my friend but now I can pick it up and look at it without feeling like chucking from the fear.
My disease has returned after ten years--which is not cheery news however it reinforces why no one wants this potential killer lurking in their system. You are right to be worried and no amount of platitudes will change that; relief only comes with time passing and I hope you have heaps of time to adjust to your new reality. Marg