@ayrhaven Hey just getting used to this forum but hearing you loud and clear. Its tough being in a rural setting and although i no longer have our farm ( separated 2-3years ago ) still live in a rural setting my family are in the UK and my main friends are 3 hours away or more.
I have had my surgery, but now faced with decisions of chemo, radiotherapy and hormone treatment etc etc but living so far away having animals to look after plus need to work.. it all seems impossible.
At least you have the calving over with as you say that's a big hurdle.
Today is Wednesday so must be your surgery day so thinking of you. Not sure what type of surgery you are having but hoping your recovery is quick... that's also tough when people tell you to rest and not do too much!! it didn't happen for me when you have property and work you just have to ( my surgery was 3 weeks ago back to work after a week)
Its all shit really but i take some comfort in reading posts from people that have traveled this road.