Hello @ayrhaven
You are never really alone now that you have reached out to this network of very helpful ladies who know what you are going through on many levels.
As has been said, reach out and allow people to help you as you would do to help others.
My goodness, 3200 acres is huge - but what a nice area you live in.
Good that you were able to get hubby into care as that takes one load off your mind, you know he is safe. A friend needs her hubby in care but with the current virus situation no-one is taking people here.
On a personal level, reach out so others can be at the end of the phone for you. It is a difficult situation at the moment but you will get through it as you've shown your resilience in what you said above.
I will send you a private message. (Check the top right hand corner, the icon to the right of your user name).