A new member and really wishing I wasn't

@sandramj Welcome. I only joined this network last week and wished I had when I was first diagnosed 28th November 2012. I was in a state of shock too as I had previously lost my sister to breast cancer and thought this can't be happening. I had a 7 cm tumour in my left breast with satellites under my nipple and sentinel node involvement. I all of a sudden became very reclusive and surrounded myself with my family. I had to have 3 months chemo which I commenced on the 22nd December to try and shrink the tumour as I did not have clear margins. The chemo was definitely not what people had led me to believe. I was given anti nausea drugs etc to take prior to my treatment. I would dress in bright colours on  the day of chemo and kept positive. I had my mastectomy in March 20th 2013 and then another 3 months chemo and 6 weeks radiation. 
It is all very scary because of the unknown. 
I was also lucky enough to be under Dr Gushan as my  surgeon and specialist who has been magnificent. The breast care nurses are there for you. I am 4 years on from my mastectomy and now looking at reconstruction. I have been back at work for 3 years now. I am fortunate enough to also have a work colleague Jane who has been amazing support for me and of whom has been through  a diagnosis of Breast Cancer  who encouraged me to join this network and continues to support me. 
I am also on the Gold Coast . Please feel free to share your concerns. The ladies on this forum are so amazing and supportive. Stay positive . Di xx