A new member and really wishing I wasn't

@sandramj Firstly I want to say sorry that you are here and for the journey you have had so far. Something that struck me through what you said is you hadnt told family yet. I wondered if you were one of these beautiful women like many of us who have always put everyone before you? You mentioned about Louise Hay and different things and Im very familiar with all of it...and I know for me through my 6yr journey and a recurrence I finally woke up to a very personal lesson that I just hadnt learnt. I finally put myself above my work and I never did, my kids which is difficult being a single parent, but I am a better Mum by learning to nurture me more. Nurturing comes naturally to me and to many of us, but we forget ourselves along the way. 

Every single thing you are experiencing and feeling is beyond normal, and people who say 'youll be ok' are trying their best to be supportive. Unfortunately friends and family mean well, but I found more comfort from those going through it, because we all 'get it' the complexity of every single emotion that goes with it. One thing at a time, be guided by your professionals and develop your confidence in them is pivotal. Take a deep breath and focus on YOU, nobody else and you will get through this each step of the way. Hugs Melinda xo