A new member and really wishing I wasn't

Hi Sandramj. First, Huge enveloping soft hug!!!!! Then a deep breath! You are so full of strength, even when you want to curl into a ball and spend some time sobbing!! As for further sites in the breast, I too started with a tumor and then there was a satellite - I decided to have a mastectomy and as it turned out my satellite (wow that sounds fancy to have my own satellite!! ;)) was benign!! And I totally have no regrets about the mastectomy. I decided on information that I had at the time and how I felt.  Even when you have the rug pulled out from under your feet you will simply reassess and go from there. There is no rule that states you have to like this whole situation. In a nutshell its CRAP!! But, this is one of the hardest times and the waiting gives you time to drive yourself nuts with what ifs. You sound as though you are incredibly sensible and prepared and I don't think anyone here would have gotten through being diagnosed and then surgery and other treatments without being angry, depressed, upset but also phenomenally strong. We are all here for you. Wishing you all the best. Xx Cath