Welcome to a place you never thought you would be, as all the ladies have given you such good advice I can only add. Write down the question you want to ask before you have your next appointment, always take someone with you, and if your not happy tell them don't forget ultimately it's your journey not there's . I know it's the scariest thing you will ever go through. I sat having some treatment in oncology last week and a dr came in and spoke to a lady having chemo, I thought thank god he is not my doctor. Feeling comfortable is so important. And blogging here even if it's 2am is very therapeutic , you will get through it and one day like us, be giving support to others. Regards adean xx