Reaching out is what this forum is all about @Bean73. Someone is always here for you. We all get it, precisely unfortunately! But you'll get through, rest assured.
There are a lot of services and charities out there to ease the experience. If you have chemo there's Look Good Feel Better. And the Otis Foundation provides properties for free holidays.
I got onto meditation early as a way to manage my distress and fear. It was a great help. There are so many apps. I tried a few and settled on Headspace. It has a course specifically for cancer.
Sleep is an enormous problem with this diagnosis and the treatments. Headspace has a huge suite of sleep meditations, wind downs and sleep sounds. I imagine many of the others do as well. Sleeping pills can be excellent to knock you out when you are desperate. Doctors seem reluctant to hand them out, so many of us have used them once a week as a 'treat' for example. Have a chat with your GP or oncologist if you think it's going to be an ongoing issue.
I hope today goes as well as possible. Hang in there and let us know how you get on. K xox
