I’m sorry you have had this terrible shock. This is such a hard part, straight after diagnosis when the whole world is suddenly turned upside down yet there are so many things yet to understand and know about. I really agree with @sister, that if you can, have somebody else with you in your early consultations. Also when you go for your various tests and scans.
When I saw the surgeon first time, I was lucky enough to have my daughter and my partner with me and they remembered a lot more than I did.
You have come to the right place here on this forum, the contributors are truly amazing, in their care and support and willingness to be online day at night. You can ask anything, nothing that you could think of to ask is wrong. Lots of love xx