So sorry to see you on here and so young. Don’t google, you are not a statistic. What you have is pretty common unfortunately when you start reading on this forum. Lots of us are in this boat together, with lots of violent rocking from the waves!
If you haven’t had your surgery yet, it’s completely routine to head off for CT scan and bone scan. I freaked out completely with these, just assuming they meant that the oncologist thought I had metastasis elsewhere and waiting for the results was agony. But in actual fact they do these scans primarily for comparison later.
These first weeks are so hard to deal with emotionally so be reassured it’s totally normal to be a churning mess inside but holding it together for everyone around you. Once you have a plan worked out then it gets calmer.
My advice is don’t google. Ever. Ask your oncologist, call the breast cancer helpline, ask your breast care nurse. Be reassured that you have found this now, the treatment is good and everything that comes next is only half as bad as you imagine. I am halfway through chemo, two rounds of surgery down and I mostly feel normal again.
sending you much love and encouragement xx