SO sorry to see you here, @Tarma .... Please call our help line this morning & chat with our lovely ladies there.
1800 500 258 .... and also contact your breast cancer nurse (if you have one) and/or GP, and ask to be referred to chat with a counsellor
You've had an extremely hard trot of it over the years & with some support, you
will be able to get thru this speed hump too xx. I didn't do chemo - but others will jump on and help you there xx
Whack up ANY questions you have (no matter how small - and remember, there are NO silly questions) ... and we'll do our best to help you with an honest answer.
take care & all the best