Hi @Danielle49 and a big welcome to you. Just thought I'd say it's ok to be scared totally shitless!! Its okay to have a huge cry, scream, rant, rave. It won't change anything but what a stress relief. And it does get better, things settle down, it becomes less scary and more doable. You are in the most frightening phase at the moment, so draw on everyone here for strength, courage and support because we are all here for you, sending everything we can, to try and help you get through this. Big hug. Xx Cath