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Unwanted but new journey
Hi everyone,
I returned home yesterday after having a mastectomy and axilary dissection. My diagnosis was discovered on 5th November and since then it has been a roller coaster ride.
I had my surgery at the Gold Coast Hospital - Robina Campus on 20th where I received amazing care and empathy. The breast nurse organized my new bra and My Journey Kit and the Social Worker after sitting with me while I cried my heart out day two post surgery suggested I join this forum.
Today although feeling sad am at least feeling positive and not out of control with anxiety.
I hope to make friends with others here who are going through this unfortunate health situation.
Best wishes,
Joy
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Thank you Janey,
Yes, I do feel sad for my family the extra work they have to do because I can't chip in as before. I am keeping my interests up eg. photography although I can't us my nice new zoom lens I received for my birthday back in August. I guess it is minute by minute and I need to get over feeling guilty about feeling sorry for myself. I just know it must be even harder for my husband and son to see me upset. They are doing so well with it all so far. Thank you for your words of encouragement and letting me know it is ok to be sad and or angry.
Love Joy xxx
This is very very normal. The ups and downs of this bugger of a journey. You go through every emotion imaginable. There's the disbelief that this is happening to you, then the terror for your life, the unknown of how your going to cope, the anger of 'why me' and because it turns your life upside down, the helplessness of being out of control, sadness for your family, relief of a good outcome and even gladness of finding that your are not alone. This list goes on and on. And you keep on going on this roller coaster of emotions. I'm nearly at my one year anniversary of my diagnosis date and I can tell you that you do learn to live with the changes BC forceably brings upon you. Your chin will be drawing towards your chest many times but it will lift up again. You WILL find your new normal and forgive yourself for feeling low. We are not superwomen but it's amazing how much strength we do find to carry us through.
I won't say "chin up" Joy because that's the last thing you want to hear. Let yourself grieve and be angry sometimes. As my mum always says "better out than in". One day at a time.
Love Janey xxx
