Thank you Janey,
Yes, I do feel sad for my family the extra work they have to do because I can't chip in as before. I am keeping my interests up eg. photography although I can't us my nice new zoom lens I received for my birthday back in August. I guess it is minute by minute and I need to get over feeling guilty about feeling sorry for myself. I just know it must be even harder for my husband and son to see me upset. They are doing so well with it all so far. Thank you for your words of encouragement and letting me know it is ok to be sad and or angry.
Love Joy xxx